Fear is something that I experience a lot. As a typical introvert, I fear being judged by others, fear what will others think of me, fear that I will be seen in negative light.
I fear whenever I try something new – fear of failure mainly. Fear that I will not live up to my (and others’) expectations.
I think a lot of this fear, however, is self-made and really just a temporary emotion. If you let it take control of your life, it will. But you can overcome it.
If I were incapable of feeling fear, my life would definitely be much different than it is now, in a positive way. I would try so many different things, regardless of whether I was good or not at them, be outgoing and make new friends, and just be myself.
Writing this post makes me really ponder over why I haven’t been able to do these things and brings me back to a relevant quote.
Do one thing every day that scares you. – Eleanor Roosevelt
Perhaps this can be a new habit that I can work on in the future – of doing one thing everyday that scares me. I can name a few things off the top of my head: going for a run in the night (although I would make sure to be cautious about this for my own safety – no later than maybe 9pm), playing basketball with strangers (I’m no good at it), and going to the gym at a busy hour and lifting weights (I lift the lighter ones and just starting out). The last one is a fear of being judged though.
It’s not an overnight change, of going from introvert to extrovert, of letting go of all your fears. It’s something that you have to practice everyday, and something that I have been trying to. But I do believe that by making a more conscious effort, I can slowly let go of all my fears which in turn will lead to a better me.